this morning #963.

this morning, things aren’t ALL doom & gloom. they’re also super loopy. amped up with emotion. impossibly impractical. confounding on a level that has me wondering how i’d reached this point & why i hadn’t left a trail of breadcrumbs behind. grasping for explanations, i kept pointing the finger at any person worthy of blame. shaming some of them. coming to terms with others. trying to be optimistic. having to be realistic. falling on my face. falling for the same schemes over & over again. giving in to exhaustion. exhausting my options. getting back on my feet. building back better. rinsing. repeating. convincing myself that things aren’t ALL doom & gloom.