this morning #1165.

this morning, if it’s ok with you, i’d like to just sit with this & be sad about it for a short while. trying to brighten up & smile my way through this seems so fruitless, super untrue to the way that i feel right now. i’m not proud of the outcome. that’s for sure. it’d be wrong to just move on & ignore the pure failure on my part. for now, i’d like to focus on that. get that line of thinking out of the way first. though i know my heart’s been partially cracked, i don’t think it’ll require medical attention this time. that’s a positive sign. i just need a sec to collect my thoughts. i’ll get back on my feet. maybe when i wake up tomorrow, i will have learned from at least one of my mistakes.