this morning #917.

this morning, i suppose i shouldn’t keep holding back like this, keeping my true feelings to myself. it’s not healthy to cork what’s really going on deep down inside. not lying but not speaking my truth either. when they’re standing there in front of me asking if something’s up, they’ve already guessed that something’s off. they know me too well. from the tone of their voice, i can tell that i have no choice but to be real. why am i so intent on ignoring reality? well…they’re obviously on to me & coming clean means they’ll be there to help me BUT whether i actually want that help is a whole other conversation. their help usually comes with strings attached. i was hoping to detach myself from that reality.