this morning #655.

this morning, while his wife was in the bathroom with a pregnancy test, he made his way out to the back porch to smoke a spliff & ponder his possible future. they’d been trying to get pregnant for a while now but, as more & more time passed, his doubts about his capacity to be a good father had only grown. half of the time, he couldn’t even take care of himself. just last tuesday, some time around 4pm, he realized he’d forgotten to eat. children require feeding. if it was a boy, he wasn’t the best role model. if it was a girl, he had little experience treating women as anything other than prey. when he stepped back inside & heard his wife crying, he still had no idea how this test would turn out.