this morning #468.

this morning, a particular habitual pattern she applied to her wakeup routine involved applying makeup between selfies so the world could be party to her process. it felt empowering to bring total strangers into her world & show off her beauty. for once, she had complete control. she could keep her fanatical followers at arm’s length, separated by screens. still, when she’d first started sharing suggestions for skills like “fixing your drab complexion” & “flashes of lashes,” it was an attempt at making her mark. that mark now felt like more of a blemish, as the treadmill sped up & she was one slipup from slipping right off it & scuffing up her pretty little face.