this morning #2282.

this morning, there was this young couple on the subway. sitting a few seats away from me. sleeping baby in a carriage. i caught myself staring. watching the way they smiled wide at one another while the child they’d introduced to this messed-up world lay at peace between them. the man. in the moment, i sort of wanted to be him. there was a joyous pride on his face. clearly his first kid. excited to see the life they were building together taking shape. although i knew i was staring, i couldn’t look away. had to watch. had to absorb as much as possible of the love sparking back & forth between them. inspiring. maybe one day that’ll be me. there’s still time for it to happen. not a whole lot of it but i ain’t dead yet. like to believe that it’s possible even for a shmuck like me.