this morning #2268.

this morning, our intentions were in tension. major mixed signals hiding behind frosted glass. now i know. out in the open. maybe deep down i always knew it was the case but chose to ignore the truth. it didn’t have to be this way. if i’d just been man enough to speak up in the first place & tell her what she means to me, we wouldn’t have ended up having words in a target parking lot. turns out that i’m “boyfriend material.” her words. i’m flattered but even i don’t see myself that way. this entire time, her hanging out with me was her attempt at making me her man. says i led her on. i thought we were just having fun. if i’m being real here, i thought that she might be gay. didn’t want to say so though. make things weird. given how things turned out, i would’ve been ok with weird.