this morning #2006.

this morning, i was carefully cycling through three completely divergent versions: the way that i see myself, the way that others see me & the way that i perceive the way that others see me. trying to determine which of the three i should believe. most days, i see myself as someone who lives life under cast shadows. always waiting for the time when i can step out into the light. as for how others see me, other than those few friends who speak freely about my pros & cons, there’s no true way for me to know. i can certainly speculate though. that usually doesn’t go well. fatal flaw in my design. in reality, strangers likely don’t even pay me any mind. maybe i should believe in that. take it as a sign to trust in what i actually know.