this morning #1920.

this morning, after being unemployed for almost a year, i reported to my first day at work. working through a mess of nerves. wasn’t sure so i wore a tie. didn’t need it. showed up thirty minutes early but no one was there yet to let me in so i just sat on a bench in front of the building nodding at passersby for twenty-five minutes until the guy from HR arrived. i rose & met him with a wide smile. “well hello! you got here early. how long have you been waiting?” i lied. “just five minutes.” followed him inside. into the elevator. as we rode up & he started the small talk, i was far too focused on the sweat forming in my pits & on my back. saw myself in the elevator wall’s distorted reflection. hoped that the distortion was mostly just that.