this morning #1088.

this morning, before heading off to school, i decided i needed to take a quick dip in the pool. maybe do a few laps to clear my head. try my best to forget about the whereabouts of mom for the moment. let dad worry about that for now. my focus needs to be on my finals. my future. i threw on some trunks & headed to the backyard. dove off the board into the deep end. let my body sink below the surface. sat there on the bottom for as long as i could. pretended that this was a pivotal scene in some indie flick. everything would be different from here on out. it had to be. when my lungs finally cried for mercy, i floated back up. stared into the blank slate of the sky. went back down for more.