this morning #984.

this morning, while i still wanted to keep my promise, i also wanted to be honest. sadly, these two wants were in direct conflict. not gonna lie. when i’d first vowed to stay off the sauce, that declaration was made out of desperation. mostly. some of it was for me but it the majority of my decision was for her. she’d really been on my case about getting my responsibilities straight, threatened to leave me more than once. her leaving me was the last thing i wanted so i kept my liver clean. stayed away from the bar. kept it up until last week, when she went off on vacation with her mom. started off with one & just kept on keeping on. kept it hidden from her ever since.