this morning #834.

this morning, nothing in my brain told me to refrain from bringing my fireworks to church. nothing that i said after i got it in my head to show them off to the high school guys who hung out behind the bushes after mass could explain my rash actions. in fact, i’d truly believed that this was what i needed to do to improve my standing. i was tired of being made fun of. a little acceptance would be nice. did i feel like there were real reasons to make fun of me? of course. i felt awkward all the time. smarts made me look stupid. sports definitely hadn’t worked. now i’d decided to give the outlaw angle a try with this group of guys. long story short…the whole thing totally blew up in my face.