this morning #2065.

this morning, instead of burning bridges & salting the earth on my way out the door, i chose to keep quiet. calm nod & a smile. simply turned & left. believe you me, every bone in my body wanted to give them a piece of my mind. two or three pieces, at that. they’ve earned it. deserving for sure. still, at first my brain traveled back in time to when i last unloaded on an employer after being sacked. remembered how i felt afterwards & instantly time-traveled back. no longer attracted to acting like that. that’s the old me. the me who moved through life responding to rejection with equal or greater disaffection. the new me takes that dismissal & crams it down deep. keeps it in my heart. lets it out later with a scream or a cry.