this morning #1912.

this morning, the day’s first surprise was a fresh spot of acne located just below my left eye. right where the bottom of my glasses sit. it’d emerged overnight out of nowhere. i gently rubbed its surface. tapped at it. much firmer than it appeared. i managed to suppress my thirst to violently pop it. gave myself enough time to accept that the mature way to approach the new state of my face was to just let it be. let the pimple run its course. try to cover up for today & pray that by tomorrow, when i had to interact with folks, it’d go away in the same way it’d come. ugh. had to step away from the mirror. wanted to squeeze it so bad. smash it on either side until it popped in immediate sweet release. NO NO NO. it wouldn’t be worth it.