this morning #1769.
this morning, after waking up & reading your apology message, i gave it a lot of thought. was it sufficient or not? heartfelt? sure. sweet? indeed. it definitely gave me reason to believe that you knew what you’d said was a mistake. still…all day, when i was out in the field, i tried to place it off to the side so i could focus on the task at hand but at least a dozen times i caught my mind drifting. unsettled by the idea that you knew the way i’d interpret your words but you went ahead & used them anyway. i took this job for ME. figured that us being apart would be ok. based on the poems you’ve been sending me, it sure seemed that way. now i’m not so sure. i guess i need a day. a day to think. a day to let the storm clouds lift.