this morning #1613.
this morning, though i’d been the first one to arrive at school, i didn’t run into a single one of the guys before first period. it was odd not seeing at least one of them in the halls. they weren’t in any of our usual spots. my first thought was that they might be avoiding me. my paranoia creeping in. if one of them knows about the gun, they likely all do & have opted to keep their distance. NO. STOP. it’s just a coincidence. wait until later today. i have a class with two of them this afternoon. that’ll be the test. if either of them give me the cold shoulder, then i’ll have reason to worry. reason to come clean before they blow up my spot. i need to keep total control of the situation. i should probably come up with a believable lie.