this morning #1422.

this morning, while sitting in a parked car directly outside of his house waiting for the ideal time to go inside, it hit me. i didn’t actually need to be here. i’m in no way obligated to put his feelings ahead of mine no matter how much i tell myself that i should. it’s just not working for me. that’s what matters most. would he have been hurt if i’d broken things off over the phone? probably but he’s a grown ass man. he should be able to handle a little long-distance rejection. if he can’t, that can’t be my main concern. i’m here now though, so it looks like we’re doing this shit face-to-face. maybe it’s best if i ask him to come outside. just to be safe. i do need to have one more smoke before i call him though.