this morning #1315.

this morning, the pressure’s on but i’m not going to let it get to me. it’s all in my hands. always has been, really. i grew up as an only child, so i’m used to having no one else to blame but myself. no sibling to go to for advice. nobody to bounce all my wild ideas off of. as a result, as a kid, i made a lot of mistakes. as an adult, the stakes are way higher. if i mess this up, i could lose much more than my innocence. in a sense, i could lose control over my future, forfeit my authority going forward. i don’t know. it’d be a setback but life might be easier. if things go off the rails, someone else would have to take the fall. all this time, that’s been my burden to bear. for once, i could relax. it sounds kinda nice.