this morning #1227.

this morning, after she’d spent the last year building up all these walls all around herself, brick by brick, i knew it wasn’t going to be as simple as just scaling them & leaping back into bed with her. still, i was dead set on making that happen by the day’s end. by tomorrow at least. it was going to take some skill. finesse. smooth maneuvers. at least ten hours ‘til bedtime. i’m not trying to sleep with her. let’s get that truth out there. i’m just trying to lay down beside her. enjoy a careful cuddle. fall asleep in each other’s heat. she needs human touch just as much as i do. i know it’s so. any minute now, she’ll walk through that door. i’ll get up to greet her. give her a hug. in her embrace, i’ll know where she’s at.