this morning #1061.

this morning, she had to know that my libido was low. i’m certain that it showed. shone right through. stupid inadequate sperm count. where there should’ve been red hot attraction, there was just this lukewarm reaction. it’s not her fault. she’s still sexy as hell. absolute bombshell. i did my best to explain this to her. totally failed at doing so though. she reacted by internalizing my reaction. i could see her trying not to cry. right on the edge. i drew her in close. noticed how my hug was weaker than my libido. squeezed her tighter in a way that was more despair than desire. let her go as she pulled away with a sigh, walked off to the other room. i’m going to have to figure out how to adjust. i must.