this morning #1055.

this morning, apparently i’ve reached the point where every item that i touch, any thing i come into contact with begins to turn & then the rot sets in. i’m not going to let it get me down though. no way no how. my therapist keeps saying i should focus my energies on the positive, so that’s what we’re doing today. i’m not the walking disaster that i think i am. so he says, so we’re leaving the past in the past. i’m to assess the situation, realize it’s not necessarily destined to go wrong like all those other times, pass past my flair for pulling the past forward & letting it infect the here & now. somehow muddle through. do what i can do to reverse a downward trend & instead encourage some sort of growth.