this morning #1017.

this morning, for a fleeting moment between breakfast & brushing my teeth, i got a concrete craving for a morning beer. right out of the blue. we’re talking a heavy, hoppy american IPA. cold. golden. hazy. paired with a marlboro light. it’s weird. it’s been ten years since my last drink. six since i’ve smoked. all at once, both temptations sounded amazing. saliva in the back of my throat. tingle up & down the nape of my neck. then, just as quickly, the hunger passed. every so often, it just happens like that. i’m reminded that my past will always be a fact. recalling all the good times i had. also recalling all the bad. confident that i’m ok today. that’s what i had. this is what i have.